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“ Mrs. Harris, we need you to come back to Dallas immediately—and be prepared to stay, if necessary.”

It was Thursday morning, and we had just returned home from Dallas less than 12 hours earlier. In addition to Sammy’s regular appointment the day before, I had undergone some testing due to breathing difficulties I had been experiencing.  Now, the results were back.  The nurse didn’t share much information with me, just that the echo on my heart was abnormal, they were concerned, and I had an appointment with the cardiologist first thing Friday morning. So, we packed up and headed back to Dallas that night.

The phone call made for a restless night, but not as much as the news we had received the day before—Samuel’s cardiothoracic surgeon at Children’s Medical Center was leaving October 1st for a new job in Chicago, and Sammy’s delivery date was scheduled for October 3rd. Our sonogram also revealed a smaller baby then the doctors wanted to see at this point—although he feels pretty big to me!

I was thankful as the sunrise began to peek through the heavy hotel curtains in Dallas that morning.  After a thorough exam, the cardiologist was able to rule out immediate threats…namely a pulmonary embolism.  What a relief!  She consulted with us about our options moving forward and together we decided we would manage symptoms and wait to fix my Atrial Septal Defect after Samuel was born.

The car ride home was quiet. I was so happy to be going home, but the events of the past two days began to smother me with another feeling…of being less than.  That feeling only grew over the weekend, and I questioned every decision Mike and I had made up to that point.  After weeks of struggling for my breath, I was growing tired and my body wanted to give up. If I didn’t have what it takes to be Samuel’s mom now, I wondered how I could possibly have it later—whatever “it” was.

Sunday morning came and I entertained the idea of staying home from church. I felt vulnerable, and I didn’t want people to see me. Thankfully, I realized where that inclination to isolate was coming from…all weekend I dwelled on lies from the enemy about who I was NOT. So you better believe I got myself to church!  I went down to the altar to pray on my knees and it left me overcome by emotion. In one of the most humble moments of my life, I felt the warm embrace of my heavenly Father lift me up in perfect love and remind me exactly whose I AM.

“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9 

Honestly, it’s a day I will never forget, and I pray it’s a love each of you knows. I may find it easy to disqualify myself, but God qualifies me with His Truth. I am courageous and I am strong in Him.  Because God called us to it, He promises to fill the gaps, and I can rest knowing I am exactly who I need to be today. His power and provision are abundantly more than Sammy’s needs or our own. So as we start our last week in Oklahoma, we are in a delightful hypernesting mode–as Mike calls it–preparing to welcome Samuel Shepherd Harris on October 3rd!

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  • Joan

    says on:
    September 6, 2016 at 9:14 pm

    God spoke to you! Wow, it’s such an amazing, gorgeous thing to feel His touch and to find true rest in the arms of our all-mighty Lord. Dacia,He is with you. Surrounding you,Mike and Samuel with continuous prayers and love beyond measure!! XOXO

    • Annemarie Omilian

      says on:
      September 18, 2016 at 3:54 pm

      Beautifully written words from the heart, Dacia. You have a gift of communication from the Lord, that’s for sure. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Praying for you and Samuel. God be praised every step of the way! 😘

  • Vickie DiNardo

    says on:
    September 6, 2016 at 11:48 pm

    Praying for you all 🙏❤️🙏❤️

  • gail evans

    says on:
    September 7, 2016 at 3:59 am

    Dacia, Mike & Jack….though I am far away from you, my heart is not. It will also go to Dallas. It will be there through your preparing and be there for Samuel’s birth and it will stay ontil your journey back home. Mike, I don’t remember exactly how old you were when you first moved 2 doors down…2? 3? But it wasn’t long after that we were all sharing our lives. The birthdays, summers, snowballs and ultimately we shared our sorrows. And altho we only met a few years ago, Dacia, I feel a close bond with you. Linda (your mom/mom in law/jack& sam’s gigi) is a sister of my soul….we have shared much LIFE together. I start my mornings with prayer for all of you on my lips and i carry all of you with me always. Sending you my love, my strength, my hope. Gail

  • Kathleen

    says on:
    September 7, 2016 at 8:15 am

    Thanks for sharing your journey. I am praying for you all. I pray that Gods promises will be foremost on your mind over these next weeks. May the God of Miracles hold you tight and whisper Words of truth.

  • Barbara Kent

    says on:
    September 7, 2016 at 1:39 pm

    Praying for you and your family. Please listen to your body. It is God telling you to rest when needed. Your Upcoming surgery will require your body to be at your best. I trust you will not go into labor. Hang in there. The Birmingham gang has your back.
    Love and Peace

  • Lynn Barnes

    says on:
    September 7, 2016 at 9:23 pm

    Our God is AWESOME! HE provides more than we need and HIS Words spoken to you are HIS way of saying, “Child, I have all of you covered!” Lyrics of the song, “In the Eye of the Storm,” remind us, “You alone are the anchor when my sails are torn. Your Love surrounds me in the eye of the storm.” HIS Love is surrounding each of you. Lifting all of you up daily, in love. What a blessing for Sammy to have you as his mama!

  • Diane

    says on:
    September 8, 2016 at 3:13 am

    You are such an inspiration! Stay strong.

  • cheryl newland

    says on:
    September 12, 2016 at 4:34 am

    I am praying for you and Mike and Samuel in CT.

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